Monday, September 27, 2010

I walked into a life-changing room..........

Soooooooo…..clearly this last weekend was the BOOBs gathering in Chicago, IL. I think if I had to describe it in one word….it would be….life-changing. If you think I was the only nervous one about to take on things I’d never done before…you’d be mistaken. Women did things this weekend we don’t normally do. We made ourselves a priority and put ourselves first. We left behind mates, jobs, fears, kids, and lives….to celebrate our journey and camaraderie. We hugged, laughed and cried and refilled our love cups. We drove alone, we flew alone, we shopped, ate, drank….lived and created memories.


At times, I would stand back and just listen and look. Surreal is the word that comes to mind. I saw women in dresses and heels for the first time in years. Women walking block after block when months ago they could not have. Women dancing and laughing when maybe a year ago the laughter was gone and they never knew if they’d dance again. Women exchanging and letting go of clothes and clothing memories….because they could put that piece of clothing into another woman’s hand for her to create memories in. Wine bottle momentos…cherished forever. Unexpected gifts packed lovingly in suitcases meant to surprise someone who changed their life. Over 3500 pounds lost announced in a room….and still goosebumps each time I think of that moment. Spanx united. And I swear every time I turned around there’d be a group of 6 women with their shirts up feeling each other’s lap band ports. Monumental I tell you. (and a little creepy…ha!)

A few people asked me….has your life changed since you started blogging?

I never hesitated once…and answered yes. One year ago, I would not have driven alone to Jenny’s. Nor would I have gone to Chicago to meet women I don’t know for a weekend. I wouldn’t have left Rambo and the girls. I wouldn’t have thought I was important enough to celebrate the journey I have taken.

I never would have loved and needed the women in blogland like I do. And no – I’m not just talking about those who attended. We never once forgot about all of you who couldn’t make it. Each night – we all made toasts to you and talked of those of you who we missed and talked of next year and of our hopes that you all could make it then. I know it’s not the same – but I want you to know you were never far from our hearts.

What I want you to know is simply this…if you blog and if you comment…for me and I think many others….after a weekend such as this – I think I can safely say please never ever just think what we do is the typing of words. I have proof it is not. What we write and say is real. It is emotional, supportive, and loving and it is, again….life-changing.

I walked into a room of over 50 women and didn’t have to explain myself. I didn’t have to introduce who I was or who I was married to and how far I’ve come or how scared I was. Every one of them knew.

I walked into a room of over 50 women…….and instantly I belonged.

I walked into a room of over 50 women….and I never wanted to walk back out.

52 comments:

Blossom said...

Sounds like it surpassed your expectations, which is amazing! I'm glad you had a great time; I'm looking forward to all the updates (and hearing what's coming next)!

Band Groupie said...

Oh my darlin'...I'm so proud of you...and all of you! I'm so happy that it went perfectly...can't wait to hear about the next one! Thanks for sharing!

Miss Vickie "The Queen Bee" said...

It was an honor to meet you, Draz. You are one hot mama and Rambo and your girls are lucky to have you. I had such a great time and I thank you for all of your hard work. Can't wait for next time!

Catherine55 said...

So great to meet you, Drazil! This weekend was truly incredible!!

Annie said...

Yay Drazil! How exciting, and wonderful, and exciting!! Glad all of you girls had a great time- looking forward to joining you for BOOBS 2!

Paige said...

This sounds like it was as wonderful as I or anyone would have dreamed it could have been! I am so glad for everyone!! I hope to join you all next year!

~ Katie ~ said...

Sounds like y'all had a fab-o time...I can't wait to see where we head next year, because I WILL be there :)

Angie said...

It was amazing to meet you - I wish we got to spend more time, it all happened so fast! Thank you for organizing everything!

Barbara said...

OMG Draz.. you've captured it.. I got goose bumps reading your post and now have tears streaming.. that is it.. it was unexplainable that we didn't need to explain ourselves.. when does that EVER happen? And to meet you in the flesh, was So wonderful.. you are even more gorgeous in person and you are soooo kind and sweet.. don't let Draz scare you.. she is as soft as a kitten!! And THANK YOU for everything (even my skittles).. BIG HUGS to you and glad you made it home safe and sound

Sarah said...

You're amazing. I am so grateful for you coming, helping organize, etc... Such an honor to meet you in person - I can't wait to keep following your adventures and to see you again soon... Love you!

Jo said...

I thought about all of you bodacious women many times over the weekend and wished I could have been there to share in such a wonderful experience. I am only hoping that it is done again next year and that "life" doesn't get in the way.

And for all the anxiety you had over going...truly understandable. Glad you had a great time and met such amazing people. I'm a little jealous but VERY happy for all of you! I hope those memories live forever!

DB said...

Thank you! I have been tearing up since last night..reading the posts that recounted your weekend and looking at the pictures of all you beautiful women. Thank you for remebering those of us that could not attend - it means so much. xoxoxo

DiZneDiVa said...

Wow, You captured all the feelings of an unbelievable experience again. You are an amazing writer! I loved meeting you all and spending time with each of you... my only regret was that it wasn't enough time to spend together but the real world calls... I look forward to next year! *Maria*

Nicole said...

Amen!! It was so great to meet you and life changing it was :)

Raegun said...

Sounds like a fantastic experience!

Alexis said...

Well dammit. One thing you don't know about me is that I don't wear waterproof mascara and now I have it running down my face. Thanks. :) Really though...it was SO amazing to meet you.

amandakiska said...

Wish I could have been there! It sounds AMAZING!

tessierose said...

You nailed it sister. I'm so glad we did this and so glad I got to meet you and give you a hug!
And ditto what Alexis said!! Hugs.

Jenny said...

It was a lovely weekend. I loved meeting you in person! Cannot wait to see you again!

Ginger said...

hold the phone!! you went on another vacation?! that is awesome it sounds like it was nspirational!!

Mom to the Fourth Power said...

Wow... what an amazing weekend. Sounds truly wonderful and life changing like you said! So cool. :)

~Margene

Jess said...

That is awesome! Bummed I missed it. Maybe next time!!!

Lucas said...

I'm SO PROUD of you!!! And I especially glad that when you stepped outside of your comfort zone, you were met with acceptance and love and support. HOORAY for you!!!!! :D

Gen said...

Sing it Sista! So great to meet you and, as you said, walk in and instantly "belong"....surreal and life-changing. Thanks so much.

Sherry said...

So so so true!!! Wonderful way to put it!

Lanie Painie said...

I'm glad you all had such a wonderful time and I hope it has motivated you to do better than ever. Keep workin it!

Lynda said...

I loved meeting you, too!

Gilly said...

Jerk! Made me cry AGAIN!

JourneyBeyondSurvival said...

I'm so glad you had fun Draz. AND that you were brave!

Steph said...

*Sniffle*

Gail said...

Yeah so im sitting in Atlanta waiting on my flight and thought id check out blog land. What a awesome post. I looked up at Kathy with tears coming down my face....I look like a crazy woman, thanks! Haha!!What an awesome weekend. It was so great to meet you.

Julie, The Accidental Fat Chick said...

It was a wonderful weekend! So glad I got to be there & meet everyone!! :)

Nella said...

SUPPA SUPPA STAR!!!!!!!!!!!

Nikki said...

YAY! I am so thrilled that you had such a good time!! That is awesome! So So SO SO SO proud of ya!!

River said...

I haven't been in the "mood" for commenting but... my eyes are watering for some reason. I'm a crybaby and you are speaking to my heart today. And we are all glad you are speaking to us! ♥

Bonnie said...

I'm still processing the emotions of the weekend. I want to put my thoughts down, but they are so jumbled it is hard to do. I wish I had your clarity to explain so perfectly what our gathering meant. I have never felt that accepted in my life. Blogging has forever changed for the better.

Band-Babe said...

I am crying. I wish I had spent more time with you and Jenny... next time...

Cindylew said...

I couldn't be more honored to have met you because you inspire us all. I am also completely proud of you because I know how hard that was for you to do...and you did it anyway.
I said it there and I'll say it again...I love you Draz.

Read said...

I'm pretty new to this wonderful group of women but can say you are all awe inspiring! I'm so thrilled that you were brave and that it exceeded your expectations. I'm only beginning to get to know you all and yet, you captured a moment so eloquently, so beautifully, it was as if I was right there with you. Thanks for that and for all your hard organizing work - I look forward to joining you next year.

Kristin said...

So well said, Draz. As always. It was such a pleasure to meet you and talk with you and spend time together. xoxo

Jacquie said...

I love you even more! You captured exactly how I felt...thank you for this beautiful post my biker sista!

Jennifer said...

Now I'm crying Again!!! Geesh!!
Well said Drazzie. I'm so lucky I was able to spend the whole weekend with you!

Beth said...

Wow, so it wasn't just me. I felt EXACTLY the same, so incredible to be in a place where you are supported, loved, where people understand you and never judge!! You organizers did an INCREDIBLE job, you should be ohh so proud of yourselves. Thankyou thankyou thankyou!!!

Juli's Journey said...

Very inspiring. Thanks for sharing.

Judi said...

OOH I so wish I could have been there. Next time for sure. I may need to retire to be there...but, oh well...
Drowning my sorrows in a nice bottle of Chateau de Bonhoste, Bordeaux Blanc. It's doing the trick...for now.
Congrats on such a wonderful event!
Onward!
Judi

only a number said...

Beautifully written. I am so glad your weekend was wonderful.

Blogging - AAAHH! It truly is a satisfying endeavor. I have met women that I would have NEVER met if it weren't for blogging. I have develope relationships with ladies that I may never get to meet but they are solid friendships just the same.

Have a wonderful week!

Seeing in colour said...

ohhhh so sweet! so jealous i couldnt be there.

Scuttleboose said...

Sounds like you girls had a great time :) Thanks for sharing the memories and validating the hours that we spend typing!

Sam said...

I am jealous, happy and and so excited for you and all you wonderful ladies. I

AmeyinIdaho said...

I just had to be the 50th comment :)

You hit the nail on the head. LIFE CHANGING!! How often to we get to walk in a room of 50 women and instantly know you belong there, that you won't be judged for who you are, or have to explain yourself? Your post brought goosebumps to my arms and tears to my eyes. I could never be where I am without this fabulous group of women!! And meeting you...WOW!! You are an incredible woman of strength, beauty, and kindness. The world needs more women like you!!!

Girl Bandit said...

So sorry I wasn't there to experience it all. Glad you had such a good time

Debi said...

Wow! What a great post!! I thought of all of you lucky ones in Chicago, the whole weekend. Wishing that I could have been there with ya'll.

But your post puts into words, exactly how I feel about all of you. Even though I have only been lucky enough to have met 3 of you in person so far!!

I too have tears streaming down my face!!! I couldn't have said it better myself, if I tried! Maybe next time, I will be in a better position of being able to afford the trip! I really hope so!!!