Yes – I realize this is a completely intimate and personal question…but I am seriously searching for answers.
Let me explain.
Lately I’ve been reading a lot of blogs that are mentioning God and religion and even quoting scripture. I’m a non-practicing Catholic with a strong, internal faith base. I don’t talk about my faith a lot. I don’t share how I feel about it a lot. I just have it and do it. In my own way.
When I find blogs “preaching” to me about what I should or shouldn’t do in regards to Satan and daily devotions and such…I’ll admit I stop reading. It just doesn’t interest me – because I have my own strong views on what I should and shouldn’t do. If I was searching for a religion or path – I’d probably read more of those types of blogs…but I’m not.
To each his own though. Write about your heart’s desire – even if it’s God. Have at it. More power to you. I admire your faith. I just don’t want to read about it.
In these blogs – before I stop reading though – I see the person mention that when they are struggling – they pray. They usually say, “Such and such is bothering me – so I prayed about it.” Or “my husband and I make a daily habit of praying about and for each other.”
Beyond blogs – I’ve seen a few shows recently where they say, “We didn’t know what to do – so we prayed about it.”
What does that mean??? For realz. When they say they “prayed about that” – what does that mean exactly?
Does it entail getting down on their knees and folding their hands and putting their head down?
Does it require going off alone or to a church? Does the person pray out loud? In silence? In their head?
When you “pray about it” – what do YOU say or do? Do you just talk to your God like you would talk to a friend? Or does “pray about it” mean that you literally recite known prayers like the Our Father or Hail Mary?
Does “praying about it” mean sitting in silence – meditating? Waiting for an answer? How do you know when you’re done? Do you just do it one time regarding a decision or does “praying about it” mean you do it constantly for days or weeks or until the answer comes?
There are decisions and worries in my life and when I hear about people who say “I prayed about it and then I knew what to do” – I’ll admit it confuses me. Does that person’s “praying” equal what I would call a pro and con list or talking it out with Rambo or journaling until I find my answer?
When I hear the word “pray” – I think of the prayers that were drilled into me as a child that I have memorized for life and I don’t know how on Earth those would bring me an answer to my life’s biggest questions.
But when I read and hear that people “prayed about it” and they felt better and the answer appeared clear – I can admit part of me is envious that they know “how” to do that. Or maybe they just trust in that process more than I do.
Sometimes though – I just want to scream – when the hell do you have time to “pray” about things? Much less long enough to wait for an answer?
I mean if I have an extra 5 minutes – my top priority should be cleaning the toilet where it looks like Shrek lives or clearing a path to my room through the clothes on the floor or getting my big ass on the treadmill.
I suppose maybe this isn’t a question that can be answered by anyone but me. But I’m curious – and if you don’t mind sharing – can you tell me how, when, and where you “pray”? Do you have “prayer” rules – times – guidelines? Who taught you those things?
Or if you don’t pray – is there a reason why? This interests me too!